WHAT IS A LOVE DEALER?
Love has often been described as a drug.
So a Love Dealer is no different from a drug dealer in my eyes.
a Love Dealer is someone who gives another person "love" whilst having ill intentions-
they know that what they are dealing is bad for them, but they give it anyways out of selfishness.
If you've been keeping up with me, you know that I have been- for the past 3 months, living in Los Angeles.
Everything that has happened to me since I left Hawaii has been far from normal, and the stories I could tell sound straight out of the horror stories of television.
Starting with how I came about moving here, it was an accident really. I came up for a week for a routine personal/ business visit and due to foreseen circumstances I'm still here 3 months later.
My time spent here has been exhilarating and excruciating all at once.
from Health issues, to Heartbreaks, Betrayals, & the Industry... I've been safe from none of it.
My very first week here I became 'acquainted' with a musician, who would have a bigger effect on my life than I could have ever saw coming. We met through the crowd. A literal Crowd of people- I was standing in. He was on stage. It was a movie moment, really. Although it wasn't a love either of us were after- and it was as equally shitty as it was good, his presence in my life at the time was something of fate.
my time in LA has been full of manifested movie moments. My life in Hawaii was no different- I guess the only difference now is that I'm experiencing life alone.
I'm a 19 year old girl in this big city by myself- truly struggling to get by. I've left a home full of people who I once depended on for 'life'.
Being so vulnerable, I become the target of many, in a place like this. It's incredibly hard to be taken seriously as an Artist, when the industry mostly consists of men who see you as nothing more than a pair of legs. It hasn't been all bad though. I've met a lot of people in my industry with genuine talent and sincere intentions. People who see the vision I see for myself, and want to help me touch it.
It's easy to feel stagnant out here while most of my resources reside in Hawaii. I'm not used to having to have so much patience, and faith that everything is working according to plan. I owe a lot of gratitude to the people who help me express myself through my passions. I have music in my soul, and when I don't address it and nurture it, my heart hurts.
My message, my vision, and goal remains clear and I can't wait to release my first project, as it really is me coming into the world as a person for the first time.
I have kept a lot of myself to myself, but I'm ready to open myself to all that is, and to see where the rest of this journey takes me... and for where I'll go from there.
Stay with me,